Being a young Mom…

Writing Class: Exercise # 9:  Mar. 3/09

I was 20 when I had Kel and 22 when I had Jo…

Right after my dad died in 1982, I was 12 then,  Uncle Andy told me I must have a goal for everything I want to achieve in life. I was told that I had to work extra hard to prove to the world that even though I had no father, I would still be equal to, if not better than, every one else around me so that others can not look down at me. I was told that I must always have a goal and picture my goal as the light from far away, all I need to do was stay focus while aiming towards that light and I will eventually get there someday….

I want to become a very successful entrepreneur because I believe in the “go big or go home” theory therefore working for salary was never on my plan. I also believe in the “no risk, no gain” theory therefore my risk tolerance is super high. I am sure money must have been my highest value back then. I promised myself  that I would never be poor again. But I believe that the true value behind money for me was the sense of “freedom” that goes with it and which I believed would allow me to do whatever I wanted, buy anything I wanted and help whoever I wanted.

I want to be a young Mom and be retired before I turn 40 so that I can travel around the world. I want to provide the best education for my kids since I didn’t have much myself. I want to have lived a very colourful life before I die. I want to make sure I die with no regrets…

I used to believe that the price tag behind everything I ever wanted in life was related to money so other than sleeping, all my time was spent on working and chasing the buck back then….

I successfully achieved my retirement goal at 38 yrs old. The 3 children I raised are very well-rounded because other than putting them into one of the best private schools, I also put them onto all kinds of after school classes such as piano, dancing, swimming, skating, martial arts, drawings, basketball, hockey, volleyball, badminton, golf, etc etc…

Now at the age of 39, I finally realized what I wanted most was the bonding between me and my 2 older kids which is not something money can buy. I was never there for them while they were growing up because I was too busy chasing the buck and now that I have all the time for them, they don’t need me around anymore….

Fortunately God is nice enough to give me a last chance to be a mother again to my 8 year old child. I learned my lesson from my previous experience with the 2 older kids therefore being a full time mother is the most important thing for me now. I do believe that I will get what I put in therefore I am hopeful the bonding between my baby and me will be much better than the bonding I have with the 2 older ones… I believe in time, my relationship with the 2 older ones will also become closer now that I am a different person all together….