OMG! I still can’t over the fact that Jo came into my room tonight crying and telling me how very very sorry she was for having been so rude to me all these years.
We had a real good talk for over an hour: a first time in history. We both cried. I apologized to her, too, of course. It was so touching a moment that De gave us tissue paper and cried with us too.
She told me how much she hated her dad. I convinced her to learn to forgive him because hating someone is not a great feeling to have; it becomes a heavy baggage one carries along the way through life. Letting go will be the only solution to becoming a truly happy person. I told her that I CHOSE to be grateful to him for giving me 2 beautiful intelligent kids instead of blaming him for the things he did wrong. I told her not to be a bitter person like him, etc etc, etc, but to be a better person than he ever was.
She confessed that her biggest hurt now is that her relationship with Kel is ruined. I gave her my advice but also told her that Deb (my counsellor) will be more pro to help her out. She actually agreed to see Deb after I told her about my and Tall’s experience with Deb.
I talked to Jo as if she were an adult. I praised her for being so much more mature than I was when I was her age. Man, I so wish we can talk like this more often. But we both did agree to rebuild our bonding. And I think with her starting in her venture in trading currencies next week, our relationship will only get better since she, Kel and I will have a common topic. Kel and I had gotten a lot closer ever since last week because of the trading currency topic. He even happily attended my monthly dinner with mom and uncle tonight!
I feel like 10 million bucks richer now!! Really, thanks to the EQ program Jo attended, it helped her realize her hurts at 15 and not at 25 or 35!! I can “feel” my path to “JOY” road has just started now!! :))) XOXO
I shared this with Barry who immediately congratulated us for having gone to this level of relationship. He sent me some words of wisdom: a) that with what she has done, Jo can now work towards “liberation”; b) that without love, hate cannot be released because “love” and “hate” are twin feelings; c) that my love for her will enable her to release the hate and then more love can flow in. He commended us for rekindling our “romance” and he said that he believed that Jo now needs a “man” model for her to feel love for and of the opposite sex because soon in her life, she will enter a new phase when she would be choosing a man to spend her life with. And to me, he said, “I really appreciate your effort in your personal growth these years. You are what you are today because of the choices you made yesterday.” Of course, I agree. I also greatly appreciate it when he expressed his hope that I can influence more people to grow and to find a joyful “life” instead of happily “living” only.
Eric also expressed his happiness for Jody who is “becoming a big girl.” He is hopeful that things will work out well between her and Kel. I told him that I am happier now than if I had made 100K from CMC!
Pan told me that she found this event a “great huge awesome” change in our lives. She said she believed that life would only get better for all us and that she found it cute for De to crying with us.
Amy’s letter to Jo – Aug 9/08
Dear Jo:
Thank you so much for the talk tonight. It came way earlier than I had predicted. So so proud of you, honey!!
I feel we both had entered the path to “JOY Road” now…. So, I look forward to re-building a stronger bond with you – my one and only special girl!!
I had always love you unconditionally and always will…. Sleep tight baby!!
Lots of Love
Mom